I FAILED...

We'll it happened...I failed my first test... I have had a test every Monday or Wednesday of the past three weeks of school..so once were done with one you have about five days to get ready for the next one...I'm not quite sure what part of this is considered "part-time program" but ok...I had a test on cancer and genetics in pathophysiology Wednesday night and tonight was a test on the drugs of the CNS and their side effects...so what do you spend your time on studying?? Which class do you choose..or how do you balance both?? We'll I got an 83% on the test that was on Wednesday and a 67% on the test tonight...so you can see which one I spent most my time on....at this point maybe I don't want to go to nursing school?? Is it worth it?? All this time away from Molly..so many late nights...and still no positive results?? Some may say that I can pull myself out right?? We'll unless you accum a 78% on yours test combined your other work won't come into play so essentially if I don't accum a 78% I don't pass the class...so my first test was a 92%..second was a 78%....now the third was a 67%....so let's just say that leaves some pressure on the next two...oh and then the comprehensive final....so let's say I fail this class...what does that mean?? That means that I am no longer in the part-time program and my name goes back on the list to wait to get into the full-time program...which I will not do....I thought it would be easier with Molly being so little...but I really think that it's harder I can't and refuse to leave her hanging out in a corner being ignored all day so I choose to stay up late and study...and the worst part is thinking of all the people I would let down if I quit....like my mother...I don't know why it is and it seems no matter what age..your mom is always the first one to creep in your mind and make you feel so quilty....I'm no quitter and will give it my all but I am the first to admit that this is going to be harder than I thought....