found napkins...with something special on them..

Dear Molly Ann-
It is the night before I am going to the hospital to deliver you...I am sitting here alone, your dad is at work...I wonder what he is thinking about right now. I would be lying if I didn't say that I wasn't nervous...all I can think about is seeing you..seeing your face..I am so happy that this day is finally here. I hope that you come early so I can see your pretty face...know that I love you and can't wait to see you..
Love-
your mommas
July 10, 2007

Dear Molly Ann-
You came into our lives today! It is late right now, I just had our cute nurse take you to the nursery..dad went home to sleep...and all I can think about is you...we waited all day for you to come...Dr. England broke my water at 8am...I was dilated to an eight by noon..and got an epidural about a half hour later...you finally decided to come out at 9:43pm at night..what I imagined to be so scary was surprisingly a really special experience...it was very calming to have just myself, your dad, and the cute nurse in the room...the Dr. made it minutes before you came and then it seemed like such a rush of people...emotions...and tears. I cried...I was so HAPPY..so SCARED...and so PROUD! What seemed to be a mad house within minutes was very quite and your dad..myself and you were alone...I remember looking at your dad he was just sitting on the edge of the bed looking at you..as I looked up at him..I started to cry..the love that he has for you will never fit into words..know that your dad will always love you and always be there for you..as will I. I can't wait to see your face in the morning...I love you!
Love-
your mommas
July 11, 2007.

Do you know how to??

I drove down to Orem Thursday in the snow storm to test for my CNA certification...I had a skills test and then 100 question written test...I was a little nervous because I have been told that it is a really simple test..so I was trying not to be to confident..the women that tested me with my skills test was alot older than I would have expected..(seventies..?)..she told me to come in and sit down...she reached into her bag and pulled out a bag from 1980 and pulled out a mercury thermometer and told me to read it..excuse me...? I played stupid and told her that we had not been taught how to read a glass thermometer...(then I started thinking..or did we and I wasn't paying attention?)..she then proceeded to lecture me on how all CNA courses teach their students how to read one...so I again playing stupid said..ok..we'll let me look at it...she obviously thought I was taking to long and told me the answer..great missed one..the other 9 minutes that were spent with her were tense but I think I passed...the written was pretty easy..common sense...there were six questions on how to handle dentures...really? Brother..so I say today that it seems you would have to be stupid not to pass...but I may be choking on my words...(I'll let you know when the results are in...)

bad news...

Dear Annette,
I apologize for the delay you have experienced in our processing of your scholarship application. I just received notification today from the Administration at St. Mark's Hospital that due to financial constraints, the Hospital will not be able to fund additional scholarships recipients until Spring Semester 2010.

This is a great disappointment to me having worked with this program for the past 7 years and found it to be mutually beneficial to the Scholarship Recipients and the Hospital. I again apologize for the time you spent in submitting an application with the idea that your application would be considered; I had no idea that such a change in practice would occur.

I wish you the best in your pursuit of the nursing profession and know that great opportunities will be available to you because of your career choice.

Sincerely-
A really nice women...

Bummer..huh..Bart and I were so sure that this was really going to lift the financial burden of school...anyone want to hire me??

Why??

Through much thought and prayer I have decided to turn in a application to St. Mark's for a scholarship...if my application gets accepted I will have to sign a two year contract with them after I graduate..this was my response to the question...why should St. Mark's consider me for this scholarship..?

To Whom It May Concern:
I have patiently waited for two long years to be accepted into the nursing program at Salt Lake Community College. Being exposed in the short amount of time that I have been in the program to the nursing field, I now know more than ever that the wait was worth it. I spent nine Saturdays at St. Mark’s with my Medical-Surgical clinical and fell in love with the hospital. I enjoyed the atmosphere and the staff very much. I found the charting system to come to me easily and compared to other facilities, simple. I felt as though the hospital was very organized and clean.
One of the hurdles that I thought would be difficult to me would to be able to build report with the patients. As I stepped onto the floor and introduced myself to my first patient, I felt very comfortable. I amazed myself on how easy it was to build an instant relationship with someone I had met a few seconds prior. As I walked out of the room, I stopped to reflect of my own experiences as a patient and how I felt towards my nurses. I then and there made a promise to myself to make myself completely available and devoted to all patients whom I would come in contact with.
As I raise my little family and try to be the best mother and wife I can be, I think of the career choice that I have made to better our lives. I am pleased with myself that I have been able to prioritize school and my personal life thus far. I would be pleased to be considered for this scholarship opportunity and for the comfort of knowing that I would have a future with St. Mark’s and the financial burden to be waved from my adoring husband.
As my semesters continue and tests come and go, it is apparent to me that the when it comes down to it the patient is number one. I have no doubt in my mind and have proven to myself that my number one priority is the patient, their care, their safety, and most importantly their happiness. I would appreciate the opportunity to prove to St. Marks’ Hospital that I can and will put the patient first.
Thank you for your time-

Annette Barton

What would you give..?

The other night I went to my ward Christmas Party...gasp..heard round the world..yes I said WARD christmas party...I wanted Molly to see Santa and I know she wasn't going to be pleased with him...so I wasn't going to stand in line at the mall nor pay $30 for a picture..(way to go Jess for doing both..) but the cute primary kids put on a little program..and they asked what gift would you bring to Jesus..? side story..my mom gave me a statue years ago of Santa kneeling in front of baby Jesus...it lights up and I have it in Molly's room..so every night we turn it on and sing Happy Birthday to Jesus..I wish that she could tell me what she would give Jesus for his birthday...so back to my story...what would you give Jesus for his birthday...I would like my answer to be as simple as a hug...oh how my hug would tell him so much, though. I would give him a picture of my family...show him (although he would already know..) my beautiful daughter, my husband that loves me and two big families that mean the world to me...I truly believe that feelings of a higher being are very personal and can mean so many things...but I know that I am loved, thought of, thought after, and truly blessed because of...Jesus's birthday...merry christmas!

Who are you?

I AM: in love with my husband.
I WANT: to be the best mom ever.
I HAVE: the best family.
I MISS: going to bed before 1am.
I FEAR: misguideing my children.
I HEAR: care bear movie.
I SEARCH: for ways to be remembered.
I WONDER: who my daughter will marry.
I REGRET: nothing.
I LOVE: talking to my sister 10 times a day.
I FORGIVE: those that have hurt me and thank them for teaching me.
I ACHE: for some alone time with my husband.
I ALWAYS: tell my daughter I love her everynight.
I TRY:not to judge others.
I AM NOT: perfect.
I SEEM: overwhelmed.
I KNOW: I am loved unconditionally.
I FEEL: chubby.
I DANCE: while making dinner.
I DREAM: about more babies in my belly.
I GIVE: all of myself to my family.
I LISTEN: for my husbands keys to open the front door.
I SING: in the car, LOUDLY.
I LAUGH: at my husband the hot dog thrower.
I CAN'T: stand people still at my age making fun of others.
I WRITE: a journal for my daughter.
I CRY: when I am tired.
I SLEEP: for only 4-5 hours a night.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: the best friend.
I SEE: the silliness in everyone.
I NEED: a break.
I SHOULD: call my grandpa.

fourth folder..fourth picture..

Here is my fourth folder..fourth picture...I was still a month from having her too..and I want to be pregnant again??