Dance

Can you believe that Molly is old enough to start dance? We'll your right...she's not...we have tried going for two months and she loves it..but only about half hour of it...then she comes out and wants me to hold her...the teacher has told me to keep trying but I think maybe she is just to little...we are going to try again in January but I don't want to make her do something she really doesn't want to do..I always ask her every Thursday..do you want to go to dance?...no, thank you mom....

Hold hand....

As my two week break from school came and went it seemed liked I worked a ton during the break and before class even started..started my next round of clinicals...so needless to say Bart has been mister mom...one night I made it home to put Molly to sleep and she asked me to hold hand...then threw her pillow out of her crib and said hold hand again...as I laid down I saw this little hand come through her crib..waiting for mine to grab it...we held hands until I felt hers let go and I knew she was asleep..as I lay there it made me wonder is she wanting to hold my hand because she thinks I won't be able to leave...it was such a special moment for her to share with me...as I lay on the floor I felt regret for getting pregnant...I selfishly am taking the spotlight off of my little girl to have another baby..I am so worried that she will feel forgotten or left out...Molly is our world and I am about to deliver something that is going to make it come crashing down! I as a mother never want to see her feelings hurt...or ever feel she is not as special as another...being a parent is one of the guiltest jobs ever...

three...to....eight....

my squishy baby...

mom: good morning princess...
molly: where's dad?
mom: at work...
molly: coming back?
me: yes...coming back...

What I love..

random stranger: when are you due?
me: October
random stranger: wow..do you think you'll make it...
me trying to be nice: Oh I have too I'm busy with school...
random stranger who ways 300 lbs: good luck, I doubt you'll make it...
me thinking to myself: maybe you should quit looking at me like you want to eat me...

Pictures...

The Friday before Molly's birthday we went down to the Star Mill in American Fork and had her pictures taken along with some family ones...family pictures being seven months pregnant you ask? I know..but I felt like she needed one with just her before baby Mossback comes...we ended up with 60 of the best photos..and truth be told I was so worried because as you can see in one photo I am trying to reason with her and the other photo she is not having it with Bart..why is it that when you need your kids to behave they don't. I was so embarrassed and hope the photographer Kelly wasn't thinking.."oh my god.." After driving home I was kind of in a bad mood thinking that they were going to be horrible and maybe I just wasted some money..but I am so PLEASED...my friend Amy is an estatichian (spelling?) and Kelly is one of her client's...what a great set up...enjoy!

Two year old PiCtUrEs...